#Once I finally write the fic it'll hopefully be more coherent of a thought process

[lesbianwyllravengard]

So since I'm thinking of Simarkus again here's a bit I've never seen in a fic for them yet that I want to write because I thought of it while looking at fanart and I think it'd be cute:

Wish I could just fucking open Google docs and write all this down in there but instead I'll simply think about it. No write.

Anyways. I'm gonna talk in points and then add them together in the end so I hope it somewhat makes sense like it does in my head.

Point one: I imagine Simon as a more physically affectionate person, because he was essentially a housemaid Android and they had to be familiar with children/be able to comfort and care for children, which we know. And we get to see him and Markus hug in game (God fucking bless) and they both hug so firmly and tightly like idk I just imagine they both give good hugs. Simon also put a hand on Markus's shoulder, reached out for him, put himself physically between North and Josh when they fought, etc. I feel like he has a good perception of his physical presence and uses it affectionately with those he loves.

Point two: Simon's feelings for Markus are so evident throughout the game in how he looks at, talks to, and interacts with Markus, but Markus mostly seems pretty emotionless when it comes to any feelings of romance; unless something bad happens. Like when Simon gets shot on Stratford Tower, or if you try to save Simon but he gets shot again, or when Markus tries to figure out what to do before they jump off of the tower (leave Simon or kill him), or when Simon sacrifices himself for Markus at the first freedom march. In all of those instances, Markus showed intense fear, worry, and care for Simon that seemed to only present itself when he realised he may never see Simon again, or that Simon may die.

Conclusion: I feel like Simon would be more physically affectionate with his friends, giving them hugs, or holding their hands when either of them are scared, that kind of thing. And Markus sees him doing this a lot; so when Simon leans against his side after a long day's work, Markus doesn't think anything of it. Or when Markus looks tired and Simon hugs him tight, Markus just considers it another aspect of Simon's wonderful personality. Meanwhile Simon is falling in love with Markus, but Markus likes his hugs so he won't stop them just because he's scared of his feelings. But Markus doesn't seem to notice how Simon feels, nor does Markus acknowledge his own feelings. He keeps getting hugs from Simon - once or twice, he'll even initiate one, like he did when Simon returned safely from Stratford - and now it's evolved into them sitting so close together they seem connected at their sides, holding hands in stressful situations, hugging after an exhausting or upsetting event, and a few times they'll even cuddle on one of the old couches, Markus with his signature stoic, worried expression and Simon hiding his lovesick gaze against Markus's chest.

Everyone else sees it though. Everyone's noticed Markus and Simon's touches and interactions and they're all wondering the same thing.

Then one day, maybe something bad happens, or maybe North says something to him, or both, but the realisation that he's in love with Simon just hits Markus so suddenly and forcefully. He remembers all the times Simon touched him comfortingly, the ways he'd look at Markus as he pulled him in for a hug, how he'd run his fingers along Markus's hands and lean his head against Markus's shoulder, and Markus is astounded that it took him so long to see it.

Like I'm not just talking about the "Character A realises they're in love with Character B so suddenly it hits them like a truck" trope because I have seen a lot of that for Simarkus, and I do love it. But I'm talking about Markus and Simon being physically affectionate, Markus reciprocating Simon's affections but not thinking twice about what they could mean, meanwhile Simon is all but suffering emotionally but not willing to stop his touches and his hugs because he knows how it comforts Markus and he cares more about comforting Markus than comforting himself, because he's so self sacrificing (canon). Like I just pictured them sitting somewhere and hugging and Markus is just staring blankly, maybe frowning a bit, thinking about all the work they have left to do, and Simon is hiding his face against Markus's chest, his eyes closed tight, clutching Markus like a lifeline and struggling not to let his feelings for Markus get in the way of being there for him.

So then when Markus does realise he's in love with Simon, all their physical touches take on a new connotation for him, and he does his best to reciprocate emotionally all that Simon gives him. He kisses Simon's head when they hug, or he pulls Simon to him first, and buries his face in Simon's neck. He takes Simon's hand and traces the lines with his fingers, he places Simon's palm against his cheek, he holds Simon's gaze with more weight, more focus on just Simon. He takes in their interactions in the moment, he doesn't let his mind wander to the day's taxing events. He sees how Simon needs the same comfort he gives, and so Markus initiates physical affection when he notices Simon seems tired, or stressed, or worried. He wants to be there for Simon, as Simon has always been there for him, and even if he never gets around to confessing his love for Simon, or even if Simon doesn't reciprocate his feelings, Markus is more than content just being there for Simon and comforting him in ways he's always done for others.

But of course Simon reciprocates his love. And of course they get out the words, eventually. I just want to focus more on Markus taking a step back from being "leader of the deviants" and being inspired by Simon to dedicate more time to being there for his friends, his family, who have been there for him the whole time.

[lesbianwyllravengard]

This got me to write more for Simon so hey maybe there's something to sharing your thoughts with the Internet

So since I’m thinking of Simarkus again here’s a bit I’ve never seen in a fic for them yet that I want to write because I thought of it while looking at fanart and I think it’d be cute:

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